i just checked my account online.

am greatly disturbed by the LIST of withdrawals but no deposits.

kanashisugi.

がっかりだよーーーー

楽しみにしてたのに。。
怖いお化けを見たかったのに。。
恐怖のあまり叫びたかったのに。。

がっかりだよ！

'i am fucking boring.'

vulgarity aside, does that sentence mean that the individual thinks that he is a very dull person?

or might i guess, that the original meaning of that sentence was, 'i am fucking BORED', meaning, the individual has nothing to do, and is therefore, out of his mind with boredom?

><

btw, i should change my layout, shouldn't i? the pictures don't come up anymore, muahaha. (but oh so lazy.)

i found myself scribbling avex's address and searching for my paradise kiss postcard collection so that i could write a postcard and send them to japan.

and while i'm at it, i should send some to japan for the oshogatsu...
keyword here being: 'should'

hmmmmm.

i was just at my 15 year old cousin's blog.
ah.
the language.
ah.
the supposed angst.

why is everyone in such a rush to grow up, i wonder.



junsu @ 2:53. :(
maybe they already knew then it was the last one.
what a big mess.

such a dark video.

is it just me, or do they sound so ...angry.
:( makes me wonder if there's a reason why everyone's keeping their hair long.

but i love the dance. reminds me of puppets on strings. or corpses being moved.
my dear boston. i love how big you are. ^^

usually people in my dreams are faceless (but i almost always know who they are anyways), and usually, i dont dream of celebrities.

that's why last night when i dreamt of junsu and yunho..it was a total shock/surprise. (i woke up with a WHOA in my head and my eyes sprang open, lol)

the whole setting was weird.
i felt like we were in a mosque (a mosque!?) and i knew that it was dbsk, but somehow, everyone else wasn't aware of it?
anyways, in the dream, chunnie, jae and minnie were at the front (stage?) and i found myself standing beside yunho and junsu, lol.

then i realized both of them were crying.

so since i couldn't speak korean, i told yunho, 大丈夫だよ、大丈夫～ and patted his shoulder. (actually, i'vebeen dreaming in japanese recently. it's thanks to school really.)

then to junsu i said, 笑顔しなくていいから～, and i specifically remember the way junsu looked.
he was wiping his tears on his sleeve because he was crying, and then he chuckled embarassedly, like 'oh no, you caught me crying!'

i didn't feel sad or anything, or elated that i was beside them.
it was normal. then yunho gave me a bear hug and then i woke up.

><

argh. straighten things out already and we all can try to forget some of it, if not all~

so we haven't seen misai in ages~ (probably because of that crazed indian guy who chases around cats with his slipper ><) but we ran into her this afternoon~

she was sleeping, but esah woke her up...

haha omg, the team is really fast ^_______________^
it's been a while...but it sure feels good!!!! <3

the Dad was the star of the dinner table today.

episode 1

mom: (places kari daging on the dinner table)

me and sis: wah~

dad: DAE BAK!!

--

episode 2

me: i told dr lim i can meet her on saturday! (><)

dad: (imitates my 'omg') ohmygakuto!

tokorode,

tokyo dogs is out! 
muahahahahahahahaha my oguri shun shun~


今も、降り続ける雨～

なんか、ドラマOPっぽくない？

such a funny title, but so, so damn addictive.

elador! (or jonghyun was it?) <3
i like your voice, so i'll forgive that hideous nest on your head.

i hope he likes noonas.

today's running joke during the drive home was,

sam gyop sal, sam gyop sal, babi halal, babi halal~!
(thrown in with a couple of arm shaking moves courtesy of oppa)

oh. and i found out my heresy membership (which hasn't been renewed since it expired in may) is still valid for accessing ruki & co.'s blogs. coolness!

we 'have' four cats right now.

1. misai, the original bitch who is not only spoiled, but stupid, but we love her anyway. the sis named it misai because of a spot near its nose.

2. tora, like his/her (?) name, looks like a small tiger with its stripes. (this one, we might have mixed up with another that the dad nicknamed haji songkok. i think its a different cat but the sis thinks its the same. hmm.)

3. ashraf, who slinks around wide-eyed like our young cousin. runs each time we get close. at least it doesn't give us the evil eye like the cousin does. honestly, i prefer the cat. heh.

4. angang, who is named after wooyoung of 2PM because of his full cheeks. i think it has an eye infection because its left eye seems to be forever tearing up. i am entertaining the idea that it is love-starved because it totally went high and purred like mad when i scratched its head.

aww angang. you're my number one cat now.

 

somebody's english improved.
 

credits to dbsknights~ i'll be baack.

where's junsu. ><

yo ju *points to subject*

this thing isn't dead (not yet k!)~ i update when i have work on my desk that i don't want to do.
your lj is the one that's dead lor.
let's go out and stuff our faces once i hand in my thesis k.

it's too hot, my head is pounding and all i want to do is sleep.

but the panadols are keeping me awake, and i don't want to do anything but waste time online.

where's junsu?

2 days after raya...i have

1) probably gained a couple of kg,
2) a PILLLEEEEEE of work waiting for me,
3) an allergy of some sort (wth did i eat?!) that makes my upper lip look botox-ed.

nice.
and some people have to resort to needles.

junsu!!!
where are you. :(

last year, around this time..

i was in the dorm crying my eyes out cos i was celebrating aidilfitri in japan alone ><

now that i think about it, LOL@me.

it's great to be back with the family this year to celebrate.

alhamdulilah!

on another note,

junsubaby uh! where are you ><
miss you loads.

selamat hari raya, maaf zahir batin!!!!

(LOVE)

does entertainment tonight ever get sick and tired of reporting on mj's death?
don't they have anything new to talk about?

so when you're translating, especially by ear, there are things that you can't pick out the first time, and because you're so bent on it, and because you're so focused on that itsy bitsy part that you missed, sometimes the whole context of the conversation just flies by.

so the video has been translated and subbed and released (a week ago!), and because i was writing mail to the boy (like he's going to read it anyway ), i was asking him about whether he got the host's name wrong. i remember laughing at him while he made that 'mistake', telling my sis about it, underestimating him, and calling him my idiot (in a very lovable way).

but before i could hit the 'send' button to the mail i thought, maybe i should check again on my accusation. so i downloaded the video...and guess what.

IT'S MY FAULT. omg >< this is mortifying, and i should be better than this. i mean, i've been taking japanese for how freaking long?!!! and my ears are still blocked sometimes. ><

he didn't get the host's name wrong, he was talking about fukuyama, not koyama, and why did i hear it as koyama?!! >< (but is it really my fault that while saying the name in question, he was actually motioning and looking at the host?!!! IS IT MY FAULT FOR MISUNDERSTANDING!!)

so before i sent in my mail, i deleted the accusation, and told him i loved him a lot.

to the dear boy,

i'm so sorry i underestimated your intelligence.

i need to take lessons.
school should offer 'lipreading in japanese'.

-MORTIFIED-

MEH!!!! lookie JUNSU's legs @ 1:45!!!!!!!!!!
heh. i love junsu when he dances.(edit: k lah, jaejoong was hot too when he did the hip/sliding motion...)

-fangirls-

is it just me, or are the boys' Japanese concerts so much better than the Korean ones? The Korean one was a yawn... with lip synch-ing at the front -_- and they didn't have such nice stage thingys going on...

YAY FOR TOKYO DOME CONCERT!! <3

whut.

there are so many passwords i've forgotten what is what. DAMNIT.